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New year, new me?

Posted on 2017.01.06 at 23:23
Current Mood: weirdweird
So things are moving along, as they always have. Work sucks, but it pays well, so I can't complain too much. I am going to have to work a lot of overtime, and look for ways to cut back on expenses, maybe even ways to bring in some extra income. I've been interested in trying my hand at prop creation for sale, like maybe helmets, weapons, accessories. I think I've got the stuff to do pretty well at it, but time will always be a problem until I can stop spending money and dig myself out of this hole. Eh, oh well, I'll get past it eventually.

Back to my prop ideas. I've always wanted to do some Star Wars armor that was completely legit. Vacuformed Trooper armor, or maybe Boba Fett, Clone Wars Jedi, something that would really be challenging, but an educational and skill building exercise that would really up my game. I think I've settled on trying to make the Boba Fett variant helmet as seen on the Play Arts Kai figure. I've never seen anyone make one and I think its cool enough that other folks might want to pick one up for their collections. I've already been planning it for awhile, but I need to get off my ass and make some progress. I'll never know if I have what it takes to be successful at making money making props until I give it a go.

I've been thinking about leaving my day shift position at the Post Office and going back to working nights. Its a pretty decent pay raise to work nights and Sundays pay a double premium, which kicks ass. I really enjoy my day shift, but I just don't know if its worth it to stay on days and struggle more with money. I guess I'll have to wait and see, because I can't even do it unless the right shift comes up anyways. I want one with Thursday and Friday nights off, even though I'd probably work one of my off days anyways. That way I can be off for big movie releases. Priorities, man.

I guess that's all I wanna talk about right now. So long!



Life goes on, ad nauseam.

Posted on 2016.12.22 at 22:39
Current Location: die haus
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: ABC Cafe/Red & Black
Christobel said he wanted to bring back LiveJournal, so I'm getting a head start, a new start even. #anustart Looking back over these posts I've made, its pretty interesting how my mind has drifted over the years and how society has changed, and changed me as well. I feel I've wizened up a bit concerning certain things, maybe abolished a bit of naivety, and gained dash of knowledge. I still suck with money, which is an unfortunate trait to say the least.

I've got so many plans and projects running through my head that it makes it pretty difficult to focus on just one at a time, which is totally killing my productivity. Shit like FFXV isn't helping either. I really need to work on sorting out my priorities and establish some genuine goals with distinct time-frames on completion. We've got about 3 months until Celebration Orlando and I'd really like to have a legit SW costume ready for the show, but shit man, that's a lot of work in a short amount of time. I know that its possible if I really nut up and commit, so I'm just gonna have to slap the fuck out of my lazy ass.

I've been drooling over some new tools/machines that I'd like to have for my creative endeavors. Unfortunately, I've spent far too much on similar stuff that I haven't made any money with to justify their cost, let alone the cost for these new toys. I've decided that I am going to restrict my purchasing of new gadgets like that by only affording them if I generate income with the shit I already have. Its both a limitation and a motivation to get in gear and plow through the fields of my procrastination and sow seeds of success.

It goes without saying that I need to drop about 1/4 of my body-weight as well. I sure as hell don't want to be 'fat shoretrooper' or 'Jabba Fett' when I finally get around to finishing some costumes. I'm not terribly disciplined in the realm of fitness, so its going to be an incredible challenge for me. Man, this post is just becoming about all the shit I suck at and how much work I really have to do to get where I wanna be. I guess its time I take Yoda seriously and 'do' instead of 'do not', because trying is bullshit.

Anyways, Long Live Live Journal!



Life goes on, ad nauseam....

Posted on 2014.09.28 at 03:30

Data was a foolish android. Why would he desire to have man's greatest weakness as part of his design? Emotions are unnecessary and often volatile reactions that rarely ever lead to any logical outcome. I often wish that I could just flip a switch and rely on simple logic to guide my life. No more sadness or depression. No more disappointment. A lot less pain.

Of course there is a downside to being an emotionless logic golem. No happiness or joy. No excitement. No love.... I guess the trade off is pretty severe....but some days, maybe more than I'd like, it just seems like it would be worth it.



Posted on 2013.09.21 at 21:38
Current Location: US, Louisiana, Shreveport, Caddo, Stonewall St, 2376

Depressing post. So, it's almost been 2 months since Vicky left, and I can't fight this crippling depression. I haven't ever had someone that has meant so much to me before. She is my closest friend and makes me feel more complete than I ever have. I guess that's what is making this separation so hard on me. I feel like part of me is missing, and the only time it's less noticeable is when I'm talking to her, or playing with my boys, Brisco and LoBo. I don't ever want her to feel like I resent her or am angry with her for leaving, because I am not. It's just that my days aren't as bright without her being near me. I cannot wait to be able to hold her in my arms and tell her how much I love her, and that she is the greatest part of my life.

Why is life so complicated all the time? I just want things to be simple. Never turns out simple, does it? I just don't know what to do. I always thought I was a decent guy, but it seems like maybe I was wrong.

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Erm, ok then. No red shirt for me!

Posted on 2009.05.16 at 01:47
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Posted on 2009.02.11 at 05:06
Current Mood: happyhappy
So, yeah.......Me and Vic are gonna get married. Like, for realz. Lol. I'm so retardedly happy at the moment, I don't think I could describe it any other way. Its the greatest feeling on Earth, to know you the girl you've fallen so madly in love with wants to spend her life with you. Indescribable, really. So, yeah, I'm happy. =)


Why can't I just be a robot?

Posted on 2008.12.06 at 17:37
Current Location: Feels like hell.
Current Mood: Befuddled
Current Music: Fuckin football game.

Life really can suck some times. You think things are going great, only to find that you really just have no fucking clue. I guess maybe I am oblivious to things some times. Well fuck me, then. Guess I get the dumbass of the week award. Sigh...... =(

Utterly confused and depressed,
Vashishio ~JM~

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By the Power of Grayskull, I am Captain Planet.

Posted on 2008.11.12 at 08:53
Current Mood: irritatedirritated
So, last night Chris, Joey and myself were at What's On Tap and we had a little debate about the current status of gaming. I made my stance clear about a certain company, and met with nothing but condemnation for it, lol. For me, this certain gaming company has burned almost too many bridges. This company is, gasp, Nintendo. Now I shall elaborate.

I am a consumer. I am a gamer. I am a Nintendo fanboy. One of these crucial aspects of myself is, in my opinion, no longer a focus of Nintendo's. The other two are constantly being taken advantage of by said company. As a consumer, I have been asked to pay too much for too little. As a fanboy, I have done so, and willingly. As a gamer, I have been left out in the cold. As I look into the future of my gaming world, what games truly make me excited? Not a single Nintendo title......because they've all been canceled or delayed, are simply rehashed GameCube games, look like it took maybe a team of 5 to make them, or just seem to be aimed at a completely different audience(note I said different, not pointless.).

As a logical minded person, I can completely understand Nintendo's decision to abandon is niche with the core nostalgic gamers. It is a completely sound business decision. I cannot fault them for being a very profitable and well oiled production company. As a consumer and gamer, I can totally fault them for under-delivering on my investment. We all know that Nintendo is the most profitable gaming company out there. But, ask yourselves why. They are selling a 5-7 year old system with a few new gadgets attached for 249.99, which is about 70 bucks too much. I used to defend Nintendo for the Wii's pricing. I used to wholeheartedly agree that it could be the so-called "Revolution" in gaming that I so desired it to be. Now, I just feel shafted.

There are certain games that do utilize the Wii-mote in a new and exciting way. Wii Sports, Zack and Wiki, Metroid Prime: Corruption to name a few. But I do not feel that Nintendo has truly driven the system like it should have, at least not to my demographic. The titles that Nintendo is pushing make sense from a business standpoint, but not from my own. I don't give two shits about Wii Music, Wii Fit or any of those "games." I am not saying I cannot see the merit for them, from an all-inclusive standpoint, but as a "gamer," I am not impressed. These pieces of entertainment software for the masses look like it took them a month to make. The sad thing is, Wii Music, which seems pretty retarded, was supposed to be a launch title.

Sigh, in all these things, I thought Nintendo at least would do me right when it came to the DS. The DS has had one of the best catalogs of games since the SNES, and I have yet to be disappointed with what it offers. Then comes the DSi. What the fuck, Nintendo? Yet another way to cash in on your fanboys without offering anything substantial to gaming. Oooooooh, a .3 mega-pixel camera!!! POINT THREE MEGA-PIXEL!?!?! HOLY SHIT!!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THE QUALITY PICS I CAN SNAP WITH THAT!! -.-; Bigger screens, ok, thats fine. Flash memory built in, awesome. No GBA slot, coo.......wait a sec, not cool. What about the games I have for my DS that used that? Better battery li.....oops, shitty battery life, gay....as....hell. So, we have old DS games that won't work on it, and new DSi games that will ONLY work on it. Fuck, Nintendo should have just built the DS 2 and been done with it. Cashing in, duh.

So yeah, even as a die-hard Nintendo fan, I feel shafted. This company that once seemed to inhabit the Mt. Olympus of my mind as Zeus has now fallen to be a mere Hercules. Even better, its like I've been in this relationship with them for so long. Everything was so great, we shared our hopes and dreams, bought each other stuff, snuggled through the night, I thought we'd be together forever. But now.......they are seeing other people and have almost completely forgotten about me. Its sad. I still love them, but my heart is broken with every Wii Fit, or Wii Sports Resort - Frisbee Dog Catching game. They have moved on........I'm just wondering if I should too.

All in all, I am a gamer. If Nintendo keeps making the Zeldas and Marios of the gaming world rock as hard as they have in the past, I'll be mostly happy. I just miss the days when Nintendo ruled my gamer's heart, because they are certainly not trying to anymore. And before anyone fucking says it, I FUCKING KNOW THAT NINTENDO IS A GOOD BUSINESS! THEY MAKE A FUCKTON OF MONEY! All I wish is that they were a little more willing to lose a few bucks to make a better product. The Wii should have had at least 4 gigs of flash and should have been much more than 1.5X the power of the GCN. The DSi should have BETTER battery life than the DS Lite, it should also have been a new system, but that is my opinion. Feel free to make your arguments in the comment section. Peace.

~JM~ Vashishio


Since I said I would in the survey.

Posted on 2008.11.02 at 00:31
Current Mood: lovedloved
1. If you're on my friends list, I want to know 35 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine ... you're on my list, so I want to know you better.

2. Comment here with your answers and repost the questionnaire on your own journal, for your friends to fill out. :)

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?

02) What was your dream growing up?

03) What talent do you wish you had?

04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?

05) Favorite vegetable?

06) What was the last book you read?

07) What zodiac sign are you?

08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?

09) Worst Habit?

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?

11) What is your favorite sport?

12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.

16) Do you have any pets?

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?

18) What was your first impression of me?

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22) What color eyes do you have?

23) Ever been arrested?

24) Bottle or can soda?

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?

27) Do you believe in ghosts?

28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

29) Do you swear a lot?

30) Biggest pet peeve?

31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?

33) Favourite and least favourite food?

34) Do you believe in God?

35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

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