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Why is life so complicated all the time? I just want things to be simple. Never turns out simple, does it? I just don't know what to do. I always thought I was a decent guy, but it seems like maybe I was wrong.

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So, yeah.......Me and Vic are gonna get married. Like, for realz. Lol. I'm so retardedly happy at the moment, I don't think I could describe it any other way. Its the greatest feeling on Earth, to know you the girl you've fallen so madly in love with wants to spend her life with you. Indescribable, really. So, yeah, I'm happy. =)

Life really can suck some times. You think things are going great, only to find that you really just have no fucking clue. I guess maybe I am oblivious to things some times. Well fuck me, then. Guess I get the dumbass of the week award. Sigh...... =(

Utterly confused and depressed,
Vashishio ~JM~

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So, last night Chris, Joey and myself were at What's On Tap and we had a little debate about the current status of gaming. I made my stance clear about a certain company, and met with nothing but condemnation for it, lol. For me, this certain gaming company has burned almost too many bridges. This company is, gasp, Nintendo. Now I shall elaborate.

I am a consumer. I am a gamer. I am a Nintendo fanboy. One of these crucial aspects of myself is, in my opinion, no longer a focus of Nintendo's. The other two are constantly being taken advantage of by said company. As a consumer, I have been asked to pay too much for too little. As a fanboy, I have done so, and willingly. As a gamer, I have been left out in the cold. As I look into the future of my gaming world, what games truly make me excited? Not a single Nintendo title......because they've all been canceled or delayed, are simply rehashed GameCube games, look like it took maybe a team of 5 to make them, or just seem to be aimed at a completely different audience(note I said different, not pointless.).

As a logical minded person, I can completely understand Nintendo's decision to abandon is niche with the core nostalgic gamers. It is a completely sound business decision. I cannot fault them for being a very profitable and well oiled production company. As a consumer and gamer, I can totally fault them for under-delivering on my investment. We all know that Nintendo is the most profitable gaming company out there. But, ask yourselves why. They are selling a 5-7 year old system with a few new gadgets attached for 249.99, which is about 70 bucks too much. I used to defend Nintendo for the Wii's pricing. I used to wholeheartedly agree that it could be the so-called "Revolution" in gaming that I so desired it to be. Now, I just feel shafted.

There are certain games that do utilize the Wii-mote in a new and exciting way. Wii Sports, Zack and Wiki, Metroid Prime: Corruption to name a few. But I do not feel that Nintendo has truly driven the system like it should have, at least not to my demographic. The titles that Nintendo is pushing make sense from a business standpoint, but not from my own. I don't give two shits about Wii Music, Wii Fit or any of those "games." I am not saying I cannot see the merit for them, from an all-inclusive standpoint, but as a "gamer," I am not impressed. These pieces of entertainment software for the masses look like it took them a month to make. The sad thing is, Wii Music, which seems pretty retarded, was supposed to be a launch title.

Sigh, in all these things, I thought Nintendo at least would do me right when it came to the DS. The DS has had one of the best catalogs of games since the SNES, and I have yet to be disappointed with what it offers. Then comes the DSi. What the fuck, Nintendo? Yet another way to cash in on your fanboys without offering anything substantial to gaming. Oooooooh, a .3 mega-pixel camera!!! POINT THREE MEGA-PIXEL!?!?! HOLY SHIT!!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THE QUALITY PICS I CAN SNAP WITH THAT!! -.-; Bigger screens, ok, thats fine. Flash memory built in, awesome. No GBA slot, coo.......wait a sec, not cool. What about the games I have for my DS that used that? Better battery li.....oops, shitty battery life, gay....as....hell. So, we have old DS games that won't work on it, and new DSi games that will ONLY work on it. Fuck, Nintendo should have just built the DS 2 and been done with it. Cashing in, duh.

So yeah, even as a die-hard Nintendo fan, I feel shafted. This company that once seemed to inhabit the Mt. Olympus of my mind as Zeus has now fallen to be a mere Hercules. Even better, its like I've been in this relationship with them for so long. Everything was so great, we shared our hopes and dreams, bought each other stuff, snuggled through the night, I thought we'd be together forever. But now.......they are seeing other people and have almost completely forgotten about me. Its sad. I still love them, but my heart is broken with every Wii Fit, or Wii Sports Resort - Frisbee Dog Catching game. They have moved on........I'm just wondering if I should too.

All in all, I am a gamer. If Nintendo keeps making the Zeldas and Marios of the gaming world rock as hard as they have in the past, I'll be mostly happy. I just miss the days when Nintendo ruled my gamer's heart, because they are certainly not trying to anymore. And before anyone fucking says it, I FUCKING KNOW THAT NINTENDO IS A GOOD BUSINESS! THEY MAKE A FUCKTON OF MONEY! All I wish is that they were a little more willing to lose a few bucks to make a better product. The Wii should have had at least 4 gigs of flash and should have been much more than 1.5X the power of the GCN. The DSi should have BETTER battery life than the DS Lite, it should also have been a new system, but that is my opinion. Feel free to make your arguments in the comment section. Peace.

~JM~ Vashishio

1. If you're on my friends list, I want to know 35 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine ... you're on my list, so I want to know you better.

2. Comment here with your answers and repost the questionnaire on your own journal, for your friends to fill out. :)


01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?


02) What was your dream growing up?


03) What talent do you wish you had?


04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?


05) Favorite vegetable?


06) What was the last book you read?


07) What zodiac sign are you?


08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?


09) Worst Habit?


10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?


11) What is your favorite sport?


12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?


13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.

16) Do you have any pets?

17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?

18) What was your first impression of me?

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

22) What color eyes do you have?

23) Ever been arrested?

24) Bottle or can soda?

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?

26) What's your favorite place to hang out at?

27) Do you believe in ghosts?

28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

29) Do you swear a lot?

30) Biggest pet peeve?

31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?

32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?

33) Favourite and least favourite food?

34) Do you believe in God?

35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Wow, life sure is funny. Just when you start wondering why the world shits on you, something amazing happens. Well, someone, in my case. =D I'm happier than I've been in a long, long time, and its nice. Feels good inside, and even better when she's a-smiling. Yeah, things have been crazy.

Anyways, just got done having a fun night with some great friends at What's On Tap. Chris, Adam V., Adam B., James, Joey, Mikey, Vicky(=D) and myself went and had a few rounds. I had a good time, despite the gay shit that happened. lol. Woodchuck is soooooo good. Everyone has mixed reactions, but there were some people with good taste at the table. XD. >=$9 for a pitcher of woodchuck was more than reasonable, and Vicky helped me finish it. Then there was some pool, more gay shit, and we finally left. All in all, a fun experience.

Works been sucking lately, whether its the economy or my ppl just sucking, I dunno. Anyways, I'm falling asleep as I type this, so I'm gonna post and turn in. Later.

~JM~ Vashishio

So.......

Damn its been a long time since I've made an update. Last one I made was such an emo bitch rant too. Jesus, its sad to look back at your past and see where you've been. Sometimes because things were better, sometimes because they were worse. But life moves on, so its best to move on with it. Been doin a lot lately to keep myself more social, since in the past I have been known to turtle and stay at home all the time. I enjoy hanging out with all my good friends and value that time more than they probably know.

I got promoted at work about half a year ago, and thats been nice, for the most part. I still want to quit my job everyday, but thats normal for me. I just hate being bound to this kind of thing, and just wanna get away for awhile. If I could find someone to just hotfoot around the world for awhile with, I think I'd be in heaven. I so wanna see Akihabara in Japan, the mountains and views of Germany (and try the beer, lol), check out Rome, Paris, Alaska. I totally would spend a month in the Grand Canyon, just camping out there. Sigh. Who knows when I'll have the financial stability to do these things.

So, for years I've wanted to build my own home, log cabin style, because all in all its cheaper and feasible to build with minimal assistance. Well, now land has risen in value thanks to the Haynesville Shale situation, so I doubt I'll be able to afford that in this area any time soon. Sad, because I actually like living here most of the time. I have strong roots that I'd hate to have to pull out (although occasionally I wish I could.) We've got such great trees here for that style of home, and I love the open air aspect thats possible with them. I would have to build a great home theater room in the house, as that would be my first priority. lol. Also, a gaming area with a full size pool table and my MAME arcade cabinet I'll be building soon. That'd probably have to be a loft area. Sigh, such dreams I have....

Drinking has become a good friend and a terrible foe to me in recent months. I enjoy the act most times, but now I've started to feel like I drink too much. I rarely get drunk, but when I do, I kinda feel like a tool. Don't get me wrong, it can be a blast, but I don't like letting my safeguards down so much. Granted I've worked so hard over the past few years to get over my crippling shyness that has ruled my life since I was a kid, but I prefer mastering that without the alcohol. Crutches are not my bag, yo.

Went to Robinson Film Center Sunday with Adam and Vicky. Man, that place is cool. We saw Transiberian, which was a decent flick which made me want to go on a 6 day train ride through central Asia and terrified of it at the same time. It was a lot of fun hanging with the 2 of em tho. They've both had it rough lately and helping them keep their minds off of their problems is a high priority for me. Also, they are just great friends to hang with. I've known Adam forever, longer than he probably remembers, lol. Vicky has been in my extended network for a long time, but now I'm wishing I'd known her better all along. She's pretty awesome and is a lot of fun to hang out with.

So, Chris keeps asking me to join his gym, and I totally want to, but I had some financial issues this month. Kinda ran out of cash, lol. Now, I'm gonna actually start using my savings account again. I figure I can more than afford to stash at least a couple hundred a paycheck in savings so that I can start building up a safety net. I've been pretty lax in the financial planning area lately, and its starting to hurt. I gotta get out of debt so I can get my own place soon.

As far as the gym thing goes tho, I seriously need to lose an assload of weight. Its just depressing me being consistently out of shape. So, as soon as I can, I'll start up a membership and get on the move to a better me. Probably gonna need some motivation from anyone who wants to give it, lol. Anyways, I guess thats all I got for now. Guess I'll check back in more often here in LJ-land. =P Peace.

Jesse ~Vashishio~

Some days just don't go the way you want them to at all.  Always starts out the same, things look up, then suddenly you have shit on your face, and God is pointing at you laughing his ass off.  I guess I should be used to it by now, and judging by the fact that I'm not curled into the fetal position and bawling my eyes out, I guess I am.  Of course I am talking about a female.  What else could make a man act so illogically, or emotional?  Women, the fairer sex, they say.  Fairer to who I wonder?  Surely not the men of the world, surely not this man.  Not too long ago, I had actually decided being alone might not be the worst thing in this terrible fucking world, and I was actually fairly content.

For the life of me, I don't know how I let myself slip from this higher ground.  I met a girl, albeit a bit young, she was about the perfect girl in my eyes.  Sweet, funny, cute, and she liked a lot of the same stuff I did.  We hit it off pretty well, went out a few times, but there was always a hitch.  She had just moved up here from Florida and had broken up with her longtime boyfriend.  She claimed she didn't care, but there was always that something.  Well, I'm sad to say, I fell hard for this girl, and not in the "OMG I wanna fuck her!" kind of way that most men fall.  I mean the "Wow, I could actually see myself with this girl for a long time." kinda way.  Fuck me for being so stupid. 

I don't know what to say, really.  I'm in this state of self-loathing, but not to the point of wanting to kill.  I did punch something pretty hard and ripped some skin off my knuckle.  That made me feel a little better, lol.  Anyways, let me get back to my story.  So, we would talk throughout the day via text messages, no matter what.  I mean, thousands of text messages.  Thank God I switched to Unlimited M2M, lol.  Otherwise this would have been quite the costly heartbreak/mistake.  She would tell me about everything, then about 2 weeks ago, she told me her ex called her and wanted to talk.  He missed her, blah blah blah, and she said that she didn't know what to do.  Fuck me for being so stupid. 

I still wouldn't let go of this possibility, and you better believe I am regretting it.  Of course today she tells me that she is dating one of her other friends from Florida who I had actually encouraged her to get back in touch with.  /facepalm  This guy was in basic training until a week or so ago.  I'm, of course, blown out of the water by this, although not completely.  She had begun to act a little hesitant about hanging out with me alone.  I guess I really knew what was coming, but at the same time, I was being a total fucking idiot.  I really have no one else to blame but myself.  I mean, I'm not gonna hate her or anything, because she has become a very close friend, but it may be awkward for me, seeing as how I still have these fucking retarded feelings.  Sometimes I wish I was a God Damned robot.  Physical pain, I can deal with that all day long, but this..........this is brutal.  Fuck me for being so stupid.

So, as you can guess, I had to post this because I needed to get it off of my chest.  Otherwise I'd be in bed, screaming into my pillow like a little bitch.  I think I'm gonna be able to get over this, since I've already had my heart crushed to pieces by 2 other females in my life, I think that there is very little heart left to hurt. 

It does though.........it hurts like hell.  Fuck me.......for trying to love someone.  At least I have Its Always Sunny to cheer me up a bit.  Also, fuck me for making my first post in a long time such a fucking downer, lol.  Sorry guys!  m(_._)m

Wow, I really laughed my ass off at some of this shit. I fucking loved the first round and the second does not disappoint. Enjoy these shits.

First Round:
http://www.somethingawful.com/d/photoshop-phriday/anagrammed-video-games.php?page=2



Second Round:
http://www.somethingawful.com/d/photoshop-phriday/video-game-anagrams.php?page=1



~Vashishio~

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